The End Time Diaries

 

Last time the world was this crazy was during Covid.  I wrote “The Covid Diaries” parts 1 and 2 during the first 6 months of the 2020 experience, kind of culminating with the George Floyd narrative.

You can’t make this shit up.

Virtually everyone I know is angry, fearful, upset about something.  People seem to be on edge.  We all are categorized into a bubble.  Our media consumption is controlled by the chute dumping into the bubble that empties into our individual world.

How much detail should I give?

• Candice owens sent out a dead man’s switch to 8 people.  Fears death due to outing the truth behind Charlie Kirk’s elimination
• Muslim invasion.  Terror cells.  Sharia law.
• Gold hit $4000 an ounce today.  Silver is at around $40.  People were never trained to understand economics, or financial cycles…they have no clue what’s going on.
• Sister hasn’t come to fix door trim she knocked off a year ago.
• Chrons, Colostomy bag and a broken shoulder.
• Chrons, Gut issues and various pain through the torso.  Fell and now leg is not functioning as before.
• Open heart surgery at 79 with an extremely clean lifestyle and no prior signals
• Influenza A
• Bongino says Trump is being hunted by professionals who know what they’re doing. Don’t trust the Secret Service. - when did he say this? The media fucks with us.
• ICE agents attacked. Reports of aggressive policing.  Threats of using the military to control chaos in select cities…. Portland, Los Angeles, Chicago, Memphis
• 3I-Atlas

And a few days later

• China restricts exports of mined and processed rare earth minerals to ALL countries.  The U.S. retaliates with a 100% tariff on imports from China, effective 11/1/25
• Much noise about the U.S. Air Force agreeing to train pilots from Quatar at a base in Utah.  Some sources report the U.S. is allowing them to build a base there.  I think it’s actually a facility for separate housing and living space for when they are here, in training.  Some ask, Why would the U.S. train Islamic people to use war weapons?
• The vaccine narrative continues to collapse.  Del Bigtree releases a documentary about the recently publicized vaxxed v. Unvaxxed study of 18,000 babies and children.  An Inconvenient Truth.
• Steve killed himself.  Couldn’t handle a colostomy bag and a broken shoulder requiring surgery and months of immobilizing the dominant arm and hand, with no person to help him with the activities of daily living.  I am recently hearing of numerous situations like this.  This kind of death has no dignity.
• Violence against ICE in cities continues.  Chicago is the present “hot spot”.
• Military situation south of the border, way down into South America, is in flux.  Venezuela.  Cartels.  Panama Canal and the Chinese power grab.  I’ve heard China is increasing fees at ports they own and have contracted to manage, especially on American and their military ships and equipment.

I am truly living in multiple realities, observing both at the same time.  They cannot be integrated.  There is no resolution.

Soup Spoons

 

I was preparing to eat my potato soup, and I realized…. Once again…. I need soup spoons!   I only have 1 or 2 of them.  So I knew Reuben was on his way to the big flea market at Columbus.  I jumped over to the table, immediately called him and asked him to look for soup spoons for me.

Within 5 minutes, he calls me back.  “How many do you want?”.  He had come upon a parking spot near one of the three entrances into the market, an entrance that he rarely uses.  He walked into the market, and there at the 2nd vendor stand from the door, there were the soup spoons.  Pack of 6.

Synchronicity?

My Mentors and other BSA&I tales

 

I graduated from The Institute for Paralegal Training, sometimes known in legal circles as “The Philadelphia School” in 1976. I then became employed by Ballard Spahr Andrews & Ingersoll, known today as Ballard Spahr.  I worked in Litigation, in many areas - antitrust, construction contracts, securities fraud, products liability, and medical malpractice.  Cases were mainly federal, and some were civil and others were criminal.  On notable case was a grand jury investigation targeting SmithKline for killing 52 people within 4 months of putting a new blood pressure medication on the market.  (They were indicted and plead nolo contendre.  Thus, no trial and no secrets exposed.) In addition to medical research, I also reviewed patient medical records, minutes of hospital medical staff committee meetings, deposition and grand jury testimony transcripts, and document productions. At BSA&I, we sometimes acted as plaintiff for business clients with medical malpractice issues. A few years yonder, after I moved to Houston, I worked for Butler & Binion (now dissolved) doing primarily medical malpractice and products liability.  We defended hospitals on behalf of their malpractice insurance companies.

At BS&I, I was sometimes charged with spending days in the medical library at the University of Pennsylvania Medical School to research expert witnesses and various medical topics prior to our firm deposing or cross examining an expert.  I did this study on our experts as well as those of the opposing party.  This was before the days of online searches.  I returned to the office with stacks of photocopies of relevant medical literature.

I learned about online searching at BSA&I in the context of a new mode of legal research: Lexis.  I was trained in using Boolean logic as well as “x within y words of z”, and other search strategies designed to narrow down the exact material sought.  There were no personal computers or internet connections at this time.  Lexis used a “dumb terminal” wired directly to the mainframe computer repository of all the books in the largest law library imaginable.  So when personal computers and modems became a thing in the 80’s, I was well equipped to do research using AskJeeves or AltaVista.  But I was frustrated by these search engines’ search capabilities relative to Lexis’s precision targeting tools.

As I spent hours and hours reviewing medical literature, patient medical records and various documents, I collected a personal library of medical books.  These included Merck’s Manual (the ‘for physicians’ version), a current and several old editions of the Physician’s Desk Reference (PDR), Grey’s Anatomy, a medical dictionary (don’t recall the name), a book, Law Every Nurse Should Know…. Those are the ones I remember, but there were more….  When I encountered a word, a procedure, a medication, or any medical term I did not understand, I looked it up and took notes. Writing findings on paper helps me retain new information.  

The firms subscribed to a handful of medical legal newsletters and journals, which I reviewed upon receipt.  Each publication had a circulation list of people to receive the publication, and I was on the “medical circulation lists”, and I reviewed each and every one.  They reported jury awards in high profile cases, as well as new filings for various malpractice and products liability issues.  This is where I learned about the dangers of vaccines in both children and adults.  (The vaccine liability shield wasn’t erected until passage of the 1986 Childhood Vaccine Injury Act, so I saw a lot of high dollar awards for injury and death.)

While this work was fascinating, I hit the salary paywall as a litigation paralegal and knew I needed to increase my earnings.  I was the sole support of my family.  (The husband was NOT a provider.)  And in about 1983, I launched myself into the world of Information Technology, specializing in applications supporting the practice of law.  More on that later….

Ramblings on Time

 

Contact.  The movie.  Jody Foster.  Lots of science revealed in this story.

Sean David Morton.  The Sands of Time Books.  Details about the science and the experience of the humans who jump into the time stream….. and get off at  another station, so to speak.

We were confined. And we have punched holes in the canopy containing our dimension.

Fringe.  The TV show.  Isolation tank used to jump into the timestream.  Is this the show where they were called to seal up these holes, as they are detected.  Or was that another show?

Tesla.  The Philadelphia Experiment.

Did someone write the script for this “reality” we are experiencing? Or does it just happen as the film frames roll forward, letting things “just happen” - but what does that mean?  How do things just “happen”?  Energy bubbles bounce against one another.  Bounce us in a new direction.

Intent matters.

Humans have the unique ability to create using imagination - the image of what they want to create.  And so it be.

AI takes away a human’ ability to create, to have an imagination. Failure to nurture and develop these abilities from Day 1 of this incarnation cause them to atrophy.  Eventually, the ability to imagine and create will be extinguished.  If not us, what/who will determine “the future”.

Have you ever met someone from another timeline?  Someone who jumped here?                                  Like the old movie, Starman.

Tyler Kiwala’s “Journey To Truth” podcast reveals important ideas and testimonies about time as it has been experienced by others.

What is “lucid dreaming”?  I know what it is, but I just don’t recall when I’ve ever done it.   I’ve dreamed of conversation with others who have been meaningful connections in my life.  They seem very real to me when I recall them the next morning.  Usually, I forget my dreams.  But waking up to pee multiple times in the night has it advantages when trying to fill a dream diary.

Greg Braden says there is evidence of between 11 and 25 dimensions.  Each with its own frequency band. Like the AM or FM radio spectrum.

Just Shut Up

A.I. or AI

Back in 1983ish, Fred Ballard Sr. (a named partner at Ballard Spahr & Ingersoll, and Ernesta's husband) was interested in learning about the status of AI and possible benefits to a legal practice. We researched. Best we came up with was "expert system" to draft documents, and the software choices weren't very good. One was Workform, created and marketed by Eric Little. We experimented with using it for Will and Trust documents. I don't think we ever got it to work well. The time was not yet ripe. But well into his 80's, Fred Ballard was ahead of his time. He questioned whether or not "Personal Computers". or "PCs" as they were called, belonged on lawyers' desks? He experimented. He had always been a mentor to younger lawyers, and he had always given deep focus to improving lawyer writing skills. Within a year, Fred concluded that the lawyers who used PCs and word processing software improved their writing skills much quicker than those who wrote the old way - longhand or dictated, then typed by the secretary, and then edited by the author - and this cycle took days to do a 360. So those with PCs were doing faster 360s, and probably more of them.

Fast forward. Data collection begins. I had a IOMEGA Bernoulli Box that had two 10 megabyte removable cartridges, each about 3" x 8x. It was revolutionary. I could copy from one cartridge to the other - giving me the technology needed to back up 10 Megabytes of data! "Floppies" were still 5 1/4" thin disks, encased in a square plastic cover. Chat rooms were accessed via dial-up land lines. 600, and then 1200 and later, 2400 modems. Analog modems morph into digital modems. In 1988, POTS (plain old telephone service), a analog technology, was laid to rest... by just not installing any new lines. IP (Internet Protocol - IP) and Voice over IP - VoIP) become standard for voice and data. VoIP converts voice to data, so it's all just data transmission between computers. Cellular phone service is also an option. Data transmission speeds explode. Networking computers becomes easy and inexpensive. Personal computer speeds and data storage allow the server hardware market to spring to life. DOS becomes Windows. iOS rises, nearly dies, and then roars back to life. (Once you go MAC, you don't look back.) Color monitors become the norm. GUIs (graphical user interfaces) control how data is presented on the screen, with lots of images and colors. Photographs become easy to show to millions, perhaps billions, of people all over the world. A common mindset is created. E-mail and shared electronic calendars become mandatory business apps, and eventually, apps for personal use. Podcasts become a new communication vehicle. Network TV dies. Computers in phones - voice, audio AND data - are just about mandatory to survive in the world.

By about 2006ish, Facebook is is accepted as a thing, replacing MySpace. Social media is born. It morphs into a multitude of different software applications. Today, they are called "apps". (Have you ever tried to explain to your grandfather that "The App Store" isn't a brick and mortar building you enter to make a purchase?. Some are free and other cost money. And of course, today's apps capture your data - and send it to the central repository. Twitter rises. Telegram bites at the ankles of this market segment.

So how much personal information have I put out there that was sucked up by the data-Beast?

Who has used my data, and for what purposes? What are the names of the entities who have purchased my data? Which pieces of my data have been used to train AI?

I have refrained from using AI apps thus far. Initially, when AI's applications became known to the public - who cared to read that boring shit - only for NERDS - I kind of felt it is probably going to become very dangerous. I briefly looked into submitting what I write to a literary LMM (large language model) for comment and suggested revisions. But I didn't follow through.

But now, perhaps a year later, I have no question that the continued development of AI is inevitable. It is a leap forward in our evolution. We must refine development and use it in properly harnessed and beneficial ways. But the chances of that happening are slim. It WILL continue to develop, but unless we unharness a police force like GORT to keep it beneficial, someone's going to do bad things with it. But WHO is to say what is good and what is bad? That's actually a discussion we need to have.

Partners

 

Rules for Picking a Partner.

1.  Tell me about your childhood…. Through age 18.

If there is abuse, neglect, trauma, etc.  RUN

2.  Tell me how you handle money.

If he’s not a responsible provider, RUN

3.  How often do you do a parasite cleanse?

If never, or he’s not receptive to the concept, RUN

4.  Do you believe in vaccines for yourself or your children?

If Yes, RUN.

Travelers

 

Eighteen Rabbit, a Mayan king and shaman, is one of the first recorded time travelers. He left, and returned with information for the people.

This is exactly what Dick Parsons told me I did in my highest evolved lifetime.  Except I was Hopi.  I was a shaman, who brought information from “the other side” to the people.  1977.